Getting ready for CHRISTMAS!!!

 This is my favorite time of year! I love the holidays and I'm so glad I get to enjoy them off of the couch!! Yay! Getting the tree ready this year was really fun because Avery is old enough to know what's going on, and she was loving getting all the decorations out. She talks about Santa on a daily bases and thinks he should be coming every night. I'm so excited for her reaction this year!!

Our two prized possessions!

Our little man, Konner!

Whew, things are starting to feel normal around our house again! So here's a little update. Konner got to come home from the NICU on Saturday. We were so excited! He is such a sweet little boy! He doesn't cry much just when he's hungry or you're messing with him, like changing him or something and even then, it's just for a second. It's definitely a challenge getting used to getting up throughout the night, but I definitely enjoy the cuddle time. Erik is amazing too! He is so willing to get up with him and does often, even though he has to get up super early to study. I am so grateful for him, he is such a good husband and daddy! I am healing nicely and so relieved to be off of bed rest, still have my uterus and have this nightmare over with!! Thank you to all of those who helped us! I know you had to do it often and we are so grateful!!!

A Konner update!!

I am home, my surgery went awesome!!! I didn't have the placenta acreta and I got to keep my uterus! So more babies for us! However, we need to get the one we had home first. Konner went into the NICU right after he was born. He had a hard time getting the eating thing down but I guess that's common at that gestation. So they fed him through a feeding tube. Then they started feeding him with a bottle. They want him to eat a certain amount without falling asleep. Okay, what baby doesn't fall asleep while eating?! I'm beyond frustrated so if you've texted me and I haven't answered, it's because I have been overwhelmed with texts and I'm about to have a break down. I want my baby home, I want some answers and every time I ask the nurses, they say one more day, one more day. I'm going absolutely crazy! So crazy, that we've called our pediatrician to see if they can help us out! We're sick of no answers. All they say is he needs to eat a certain amount without falling asleep. It's really upsetting me. Hopefully this weekend, I will have better news. Until then, I am a nervous wreck!

What am I thinking??

Yesterday, we found out we are going to get to have our little Konner next Friday. What am I thinking? I'm thrilled! I can't wait to meet this little guy but also, I am very scared. I've had a c-section before but that's not what I am scared about. I'm scared about what they are going to find in there, which could quite possibly be a placenta that has fused to my uterus. I could bleed immensely, need a transfusion and possibly loose my uterus. That is hard to swallow. Someone telling you you can't have anymore kids is awful, and I may get lucky and that may not happen. I'm really hoping so but when I think about getting pregnant again and going through this kind of stuff again, I panic. It will take me a long time to get over this and be brave enough to do it again. At least I am feeling one thing and that is so ready!!! I will be 37 weeks and so done. I can't sleep at night. I'm always hurting and uncomfortable, but I've been trying to enjoy this because I have to wonder if this is the last time I will feel a little baby moving around inside of me. :(

Happy Halloween!

Although this year we didn't get to do the normal festivities of going to pumpkin patches and such, we still had fun and I'm so glad I was able to make Avery's costume and be home to get her ready for the trunk or treat. I probably shouldn't have went but I didn't want to miss out on the fun for my little punk rocker. I just sat in a chair at the car and handed out candy while Erik took her around to the other trunks. I'm just so grateful I wasn't hanging out in the hospital!! Avery had so much fun and she loved her costume!! I love getting her all dressed up for Halloween, it's one of my favorite things!