My baby shower!!!

This past weekend, my two besties threw me a baby shower! I am so relieved this shower didn't have to take place in the hospital because we thought it was going to. The location was switched three times but we made it and got to celebrate. It was more than I had even hoped for! My girlies sure know how to throw a party and all those who came, it meant so much to me. It was so nice to be surrounded by people, chit chat and just feel somewhat normal again. I have felt like a prisoner now for almost a month, so I loved having a bunch of girls around giggling! Felt like home! Konner got such great stuff and I'm so excited to use it all! Thanks again everyone and thanks for a wonderful shower Kati and Lara!

 Nicole and me. Wow I have a fat face. Can't wait for that to be gone :)

The best girls ever, Kati and Lara!

Home again!!!

So the terrible incident that occurred two weeks ago occurred once again at 2:30 a.m. Monday morning. Just like the first time, I just started bleeding. Got out of bed and headed for the hospital. They admitted me and Erik and Avery went home for the rest of the night. I am so blessed to have great friends who were so willing to take Avery and make this experience a lot easier on us. Thank you guys so much for everything! I definitely didn't think I was getting out this time. Every time I spoke to my doctor that is the impression he gave me. I could tell he wanted to play it safe. (Can't blame him) But the idea of being in the hospital for a month while passing my child around and my husband loosing his mind cause he's in dental school full time and doesn't have time for the madness that had now been placed on his shoulders was killing me. I laid there feeling helpless. The strangest part was the night I was admitted, the monitor said I was contracting every 4 to 5 minutes. Not good, which is probably what caused the bleeding. The contracting is squeezing that low lying placenta. So they gave me probably the most painful shot I have ever had to stop the contractions of course another huge I.V. just in case I needed a blood transfusion, blood draw and two shots in my butt for Konner's lungs. Yes, not very fun! My wrists have no other spots for an I.V. and they are getting scared from each one. Lucky for me a doctor surprised Erik and I last night when he came in and said I could go. He said I may just end up right back there but there's probably no reason I couldn't be doing at home what I'm doing in the hospital. So true! So he gave me medication to slow any contractions and hopefully stop my uterus from squeezing that placenta!  I won't lie, last night was tough for me to sleep. I was so scared I would wake up in blood again. I woke up like every hour to make sure everything was ok. I set alarms to take my meds and empty my bladder cause apparently a full bladder can make you have contractions. I've wondered cause it seemed to in my case. Please pray for me. I just want to make it a few more weeks and then he can just come out and all of this can be past us!

Tis the season!!

This is one of the reasons I looooooove fall!! I don't drink coffee however, I have a passion for something at Starbucks so for those of you that don't drink coffee but get sick of hot chocolate, this is one of my favorite things! PUMPKIN SPICE STEAMED MILK!!!! Okay yum!!! It is delicious! The cashier might look at you funny but just tell  him/her this is what you want and they will make it! I always get skim (makes me feel better :) ) My sweet husband picked me up one of these last night cause he knows how much I love it! This drink comes highly recommend by me throughout the holiday season!!

Looking forward to............

As I sit here each day wishing I could just get up and do whatever I want, I try and think about the things I am grateful for and the things I am looking forward to. I am so blessed to be able to be at home right now. I am so blessed to have awesome friends, family both extended and immediate. I have the gospel, which enables me to put all my trust in the Lord because I know that He's watching out for me and won't abandon me. I know my prayers were answered each time I prayed for comfort. How lost I would be without that truth in my life. I have a beautiful baby boy growing inside of me and I can't wait to be his mom! I have a great life and the plans for our family make me smile everyday! Truly I cannot complain cause I have it so well! The things I look forward to are:
1. Finishing and seeing Avery in her Halloween costume. I'm hoping I get that opportunity and am not in the hospital!
2. Avery's third birthday! Ahhh I can't even believe we are to that point. It's certainly bitter sweet. She's not going to have a super big party like I had planned but we will do our best to make it special for her.
3.. Konner's safe arrival. I can't wait to cuddle this little guy. I just hope he gets to come home with me when the time comes.
4..The holidays with family! I love the holidays and I'm so glad this should be over before then. I love making baked goods, listening to Christmas music and taking Avery to the fun festivities. Not to mention I can't wait to Christmas shop for that little monkey! She's at such a fun age I have some good ideas piling up!

Thinking about these things help me get through my days on the couch. I'm so lucky and can't wait for these things to occur! Life is good!